Have you ever heard the term, “..like twins in a house of mirrors”? No? Well, that makes sense because it was in this amazing movie I saw over the weekend with my buddies, Bo and Brockton, called Raw Nerve. Long story made short, it is about a serial killer who is nicknamed the “Face Killer” because he shoots his victims in the face. The protagonist has a weird telepathic connection to the murderer and a stranger connection his sister. The kind of “ewww” connection you hope to not see in a 80’s movie shot on a limited budget in L.A.
I just wanted to let you know how awesome Raw Nerve is and if you have the means to acquire it, please do so. And not the Mario Van Peebles car of crap. This one is only on VHS. Also, Tex Cobb is in it and you get to see him run which is similar to watching someone run after being trapped on a Tilt-A-Whirl.
It’s been pretty crazy over here in VeggieMacabre Land. I hired an executive coach for the next six months to help propel me out and away from the ties that bind here in corporate life. So far it’s been pretty great but holy cats it is a lot of work! I have never written so many self-reflective papers in my whole life, and the required reading is reminiscent of taking a lit. class in college. I will say the gains will be worth it in the end because acknowledging there are people who know a whole hell of a lot more than you and want to help is a great thing to finally grasp. You cannot get better until you give up a little control and let those who know steer the car.
This is where I wanted to be in this post. God I love writing about weird, strange stuff and shooting idiotic reviews and travels here. But the thing that drives me absolutely nuts is I only put about 35% effort into it. That is completely uncharacteristic of me at this stage of my life. Anything I touch, I try to do to full completion with extra stars and explosions just to let people know I care that it is from me. It absolutely kills me when I commit to a program or show and it dies as soon as it takes off because not all the right pieces are together or uploading it to FinalCut takes three hours when it only took thirty minutes to shoot. The frustration and non-completion factor for this hobby has turned it into something it should have never been and there are real stresses in life that take precedent over a blog only a very few read anyway.
I am not sure which road to travel? Should I keep this place only for the Halloween season and tease it up as we draw closer? Should I resurrect the Tumblr site of this blog and just do short little posts and keep the videos there? Should I just scrap it all and keep it as a Twitter thing? These all seem less than exciting but it has to be something that I can commit to and still have that fun excitement I knew years ago when I would randomly decide to go to a shitty renaissance festival for the pure reason to write about it and share it to the word that I found the most horrible medieval hot cider in all the land.
I am by no means throwing in the towel and saying see ya, because that would be no fun and the point is FUN. I just see the same old site from 2007 and life, times, and ME are so much different now. I go back to that Billy in 2007 and wave my arms up and down and say, “spell check, my boy! Grammar!!!”. I also say, ” I really don’t know that guy, anymore”. These are both happy and sad because in almost a decade of writing this VeggieMacabre tale, it has been brutally honest and sometimes that is tough to go back and see.
Today! Today I have decided to change the format in some facet. Much will be the same and much will be different. Social media has killed the bloggers for the most part so I won’t go down like that but I need to find a way that is both attractive and professional to the senses so people want to hang around. It’s tough being 38 years old and driving around a whole day because you heard there were Twizzlers that look like Easter grass and still want to attract the same people who share your interest in international politics. I guess that is what VeggieMacabre was all along; the no rhyme or reason site.
So stay tuned. I don’t believe I will blow up this place like an old Vegas casino but the platform will most definitely be different. Maybe it will be all videos, maybe it will be just the same but with giraffes in the background? Either way, I am dedicated to making this as much fun for you as it will be for me. I can tell you, this spot is moving. My book cover is needing a new brown paper bag. The Twisted Sister emblem is not as cool as it once was.
Thank you for reading all my babble and embarrassing videos on here, by the way. I have met so many amazing people thanks to VeggieMacabre. It is really unbelievable when you think about it. I would have never met some of the most fantastic people in the world had I not made the decision one summer night in Augusta, Georgia almost a decade ago. Truly amazing. Thank you.
Casserole of Disaster 
Good luck rejiggering. I’ll follow you anywhere except on Twitter, so please keep us posted. ❤
You are amazing, Katharine! 🙂
Well, you lasted longer than I did in the same place. As you know, I definitely agree that sometimes it’s high time for a change. Of course, whatever happens, I’ll go along and support as much as possible. You may not know this, but you were the first person to ever comment on fitfordragoncon, before we ever knew each other irl. Meant a lot.
Can’t wait to see where you’re headed.
Bill — I know whatever you do it’ll rock because you are behind it and you’ll shine through. I’d like to VM continue on in the familiar digs and style of yesteryear just with the posting quota notched way back to doable standards (say 1-2 posts per month, unless you see something really awesome at Target that you’ve got to share :P). And the video content (which I know can be hard on the technical side) is always a hoot and a nice bonus. Sept.-Oct. is def. when you’re on fire and one of the first sites I swing by daily with honorable mentions to the other holiday months Nov.-Dec. but it’d be nice to see some more VM love sprinkled in sporadically. I’ve always been a fan of your nostalgic posts, stories from youth or young adulthood, so don’t be afraid to cull from the past when inspiration strikes.
I know on RtW the last 2.5 years you can see my own tendencies go from weekly videos(!) for a couple years, down to like half of that last year, and now just 1 or 2 things per month. Sometimes I miss the old “dot.com” look of RtW when I used Netscape Composer ’97. I got to the point where I felt I needed to evolve or die so transformed it into a more operational and functional blog but now retro rules and I kind of wish the site was back to looking like an 8th grader made it over a snowed-in weekend.
Greetings! Given that I love both your writing and videos, I’m selfish and would vote for you to continue keep on keeping on in that direction. But go with your gut and passion and what works best for you. Whatever direction you go with will be undoubtedly awesome.
Lots of luck!
Heather